Hopelessness has been a comfort of mine for far too long.
Whoever I marry is going to have to like the name Robert a lot because it is my dad’s name, my name, and I intend for it to be the name of one of my sons. I’m the fourth generation of Robert although always with a different middle name and I intend to continue that.
Fun fact: every time I make plans on how I’m going to deal with life, God laughs and sends something my way to ruin them.
I really miss the group of stoners I used to hang out with because when I would leave their house they would always say, “Later man, I hope you finally get some before the world ends.” And that was seriously just the most uplifting thing to me.
I’ve been contemplating my weed post from the other day and I realized that my opinions on that are heavily influenced by a stand-up comedy routine and now I’m considering what that says about me.
The summer after I graduated high school, I went to Ukraine for a missions trip with my church. While there, I became rather…..infatuated with one of the girls at the church there because she had the most striking eyes I had ever seen. At the end of the week, I gave her my hat which I wore almost constantly and was huge part of what I saw as my image. My friends knew the hat as a part of my identity in a sense and I just gave it away to this Ukrainian girl with pretty eyes. Okay embarrassing story over.
I have recently gained several new followers for reasons unknown to me. I am Robert. I like going by Shmapey. My favorite word is lovely because the sound of its pronunciation and the way it feels on my tongue when I speak it encapsulates its meaning in my opinion. I play guitar but I am rather awful because I am not as good as the guitarists I listen to nor am I as good as I once was. I tag most personal things under “shmapey” as well as “personal.” Have lovely evening!
A List of Songs that Have Made Me More Emotional Than Others
This isn’t a complete list mind you. A few I skipped over because reading the titles bring a few more memories than I can handle at the moment.
- Arise by Flyleaf
- Black by Pearl Jam
- Blackbird by Alter Bridge
- The Blues by Switchfoot
- Don’t Forget Me by Red Hot Chili Peppers
- End of the Age by Becoming The Archetype
- Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance
- (*Fin) by Anberlin
- Fire Fire by Flyleaf
- For the Love of God by Steve Vai
- Forever by Papa Roach
- Forsaken by As I Lay Dying
- Free by Switchfoot
- I Am Still Running by Jon Foreman
- I, Victim (Here’s to the Year) by The Showdown
- In Love by Jon Foreman
- Laid to Rest by The Showdown
- Last Kiss by Pearl Jam
- Let Your Love be Strong by Switchfoot
- Magnetic World (Giant Robot Remix) by Becoming the Archetype
- Modern Age by Anberlin
- Mother Maria (feat. Beth Hart) by Slash
- One Last Breath by Creed
- Sanctuary ~Opening Version~ by Utada Hikaru
- Pursuit of Happiness (Nightmare) [feat. MGMT & Ratatat] by Kid Cudi
- Reclusion by Anberlin
- Redemption by Switchfoot
- Reflect/Refract by Becoming the Archetype
- Sahara by Relient K
- Scar Tissue by Red Hot Chili Peppers
- Shadow Proves the Sunshine by Switchfoot
- Snuff by Slipknot
- So I Thought by Flyleaf
- Something in the Way by Nirvana
- Swept Away by Flyleaf
- What’s This Life For by Creed
- Where I Belong by Switchfoot
- White as Snow by Jon Foreman
- Without You by Breaking Benjamin
- Yellow Ledbetter by Pearl Jam
- Yet by Switchfoot
- You Know You’re Right by Nirvana
Okay, that’s pretty much most of them. I may have missed a few but overall this was successful and giving me a visual for this. This is the part where people start judging me for some of these.
Less than six hours of sleep again? This is how many nights in a row? Gee, this must be depression again. Woo……
